Today’s Photo A Day Challenge prompt is “10 minutes from home”. I’m cheating a bit, I’d say this is a good 8 minutes from home, but if I dawdle a little, or get a long crossing light, I could stretch it to 10. :) This is Vancouver City Hall.
Today was one of those reflective (cue the placement of a boats and reflection photo taken today)…….
……..days for me. I’ve been feeling pretty unsettled since my friend Kathy died last week, and today, so many things seemed to cross my path and my mind that reminded me of her. Which, I think, made me feel even more of a profound loss than I have to date. Today, I missed my friend and our daily banter terribly. I miss her calling me “Lovey”, and me calling her a “Little Dwarf” (she was 5’7″ – that came from her shock that when she was fitted for compression stockings during one of her treatments, she was “extra short”.), I miss emails described things with the words “sofa king” in front…..to make sure emails weren’t blocked by my work firewall due to profanities. (“It’s sofa king cold today” “Our cats are sofa king cute” However, big thanks to my friend JenX who has taken over the sofa king tradition! JenX, I’m sofa king glad we are friends!) and I miss checking in to see how our days were going.
All that led to deep thoughts and questioning what life is all about. How I can make a mark on the world like she did? Where is my place in the world? Why can’t I feel I found my niche? How would my life be described in a few sentences in an obituary?
Strange thing too, she was one of my closest friends, but I have yet to shed a tear at her passing. Maybe that’ll all come out at her memorial on Friday, maybe it’ll come out for no reason months from now, maybe it won’t come at all. I am almost looking forward to her memorial, so I can honor her, say goodbye (again), and move forward. I know a few of her other friends have said similar things.
And in the midst of all these unsettling thoughts, I heard the word “re-organization” banded about at my work. sigh. I’m not sure who of my colleagues may be on the chopping block, maybe I am (quite possible) but all that upset me too….because I am CRAVING security, consistency and just a little peace of mind.
But, my wonderful yoga teacher tonight (it was my favorite uber sweaty power class) said something along the lines of “trust in the process and know life is a journey”. So…I’m taking his words to heard, trusting the process and letting these uncertain feelings be here, but also know they will pass. Namaste to that.
And that ladies and gentlemen, is my brain dump for the day. The beauty of a blog, it becomes your journal….not particularly a private journal that only I have the key to, but sometimes, the words just have to come.
Know what else has to come? A collage of my point friendly meals, and a few of my favorite shots from the day. (and me getting back in the kitchen and trying new recipes VERY soon. I’ll share, I promise!)
Smoothie and the butt ends of the Little Big Bread Loaf we had with some blueberry jam for breakfast, little figs and plums during the morning, lunch was a massaged kale salad with nutritional yeast, light feta and some quinoa, before yoga I had a nectarine and 1 oz cheese and dinner was some grilled beef with a green salad and a cob of corn.
And just a few of my favorite shots from today…..
Hydrangeas that reminded me of my wedding (my bouquet was blue hydrangeas and white roses)…..
A pink rose, the colour of which played no part in my wedding bouquet whatsoever.
Skateboard powered by dog….
Dog being greeted in the dog park “Dude, he made you pull the skateboard???? Gonna file a grievance with the union?”
Speaking of dogs, I know I’ve shown you this guy, his stroller and his 6 big dogs before. He’s a very nice man, LOVES that I take his photo, but I noticed something today…..his dogs NEVER sniff, pee or do anything but walk in the pack and look like a big fluffy float in a parade. Not that they pull and WANT to sniff or wander or greet any other dogs, they don’t and seem perfectly content to just walk. I dunno, dogs that don’t sniff? File a grievance for that too!
This reminds me, I need to get my haircut soon.
Um…pool noodles and adult size hobby horses? And nobody around? Wonder what that is all about.
Saw this on the back of a car…and liked it.
Now, I’m going to hit publish, put my feet up and call it a night. (this was on the same car as above)
Back tomorrow…..likely with less naval gazing….