Warning: Unusually text heavy post below. Don’t worry, photos ARE included!
Today was an odd day. At the risk of this post sounding whiney or negative, there were a lot of people around me today who seemed to be sad, dragging, dissatisfied or grouchy. I had moments of all of that myself. I haven’t felt 100% (physically or emotionally, I think my body is truly trying to fight something off) since last week, and that combined with some MAJOR PMS (sorry to all my male readers for that) it turned into a day of “blah”. Those around me and I were all in a funk.
I felt guilty for feeling that way, because compared to so many, being “blah” is nothing! The fact that I was puffed up like a blowfish, and bursting into tears at regular (albeit private) intervals is no excuse for not feeling grateful for all that I have in my life. sigh. See? Complicated and odd day.
I have some work challenges which certainly contributed to the blah. But what was overtaking my thoughts today is that I’m a year into my weight loss journey and though I have lost 36.2 lbs (I am proud of that!) I am REALLY struggling to stay on course and keep my motivation up this past couple of weeks. I KNOW I’ve come a long way, and I feel and look MUCH better than I did this time last year, so why am I losing my mojo? All I could think of today was “why bother”? Knowing I had days of being ”off the wagon days” last week, and realizing that I literally gained 4 lbs of water overnight I knew this weeks weigh in will likely be disheartening, hence, the why bother mindset.
I have NO intention of going back to the place I was before – so how do I keep myself challenged, interested, motivated and surging forward. How do I shake this off?? I know many of you either have in the past, or currently are going through times like this. How do you get back on track? I’d love to hear from you!
But now, we’re going to put that drama behind us, and focus on my day’s consumables….
Breakfast was greek yogurt with raspberries and my rhubarb/strawberry sauce. Lovingly styled into a wine glass with a very cute Paddington Bear holding on to the stem.
I also had a cup of tea.
During the morning, I snacked on this fruit and one of my lemon/blueberry muffins that I made yesterday.
We went out to celebrate my friend Sharon’s birthday today. Here are my work buddies (who are AWESOME) in the restaurant. (And belated Happy Birthday SD!!)
My lunch was delicious, it was a watermelon/beet salad with goat cheese and balsamic reduction on the side. I’m going to have to replicate this at home.
I had an apple later in the afternoon.
When I got home, I had a few croutons because I was hungry and needed something salty and crunchy. (note to self, if you have salad like you had at lunchtime again, make sure you get some protein during the afternoon or you’ll be STARVING) A few croutons turned into a few HANDFULS of croutons. Yikes!!!
I then drove to our friend Clint’s place. Clint has a GORGEOUS garden. And the garden “runneth over” so he invited me over to share in the early harvest. I came home with lettuce, spinach, kale, oregano, rhubarb and lemon balm. Thank you SOOOOO much Clint. I can’t wait to make some meals with this lovely fresh produce.
When I was driving to Clint’s place I was actually honked at and flipped the bird by an old lady behind the wheel of another car. I’m not really sure why she was pissed off at me, I simply turned onto the road she was on, however, she certainly thought I was in the wrong and let me know in NO uncertain terms that I was on her road. OK…that actually IS pretty funny….a grumpy old biddy behind the wheel of a car flipping her middle finger at me….there is a fun visual for you! And guess she was having a funky day too. This photo from google images is REALLY accurate for the lady, just picture this in a car.
Dinner tonight was a “use up everything that needs to be used up” salad. I had arugula, spinach (THANKS CLINT!), a few crumbles of low fat goat cheese, blueberries, cranberries, scallions, leftover pork souvlaki from last night and roasted grapes (with 2 Tbsp Bolthouse honey mustard dressing). We also had two mini pieces of multigrain bread with light butter and a shake of our bruchetta spice from Montreal.
I know many of you were interested in how the roasted grapes turned out. I will ABSOLUTELY make these again, they were sweet and savory at the same time, and were delicious with the cold pork but also just on the bread. I hope some of you give them a try sometime, and if you do, please let me know what you think of them and how you use them!!
I’m now going to wrap this whining and text heavy post up, go and breathe some fresh air and shake this off. Life is a gift, I know that, and to live my best life I need to be healthy and happy.
Hmm….I think I’ve just answered my own question as to how to get back on track. Time to live every day being happy and healthy! To be patient with myself, kind to myself and appreciate all that I have and all I can do. Why bother? Because I’ll lead a better life by being healthy, that’s why! I can make that happen if I set my mind to it….and I will! (as much as I hate the term “ah ha moment” – I think I just had one. Fun!) Let’s all make it a good week. Who’s with me??